When I Fall Apart Tonight

You can’t fill the spaces with words,

They’re left empty and will always be so.

You can never replace poignant feeling,

There hasn’t been any inner healing.

These spaces are shattered,

Broken into smithereens, glass so sharp —

Splintered and painful, digging into skin until blood trails thick.

You can’t fill these spaces, I wonder why?

Why the creator in His glory, meant for such spaces to be empty?

Complete is a dream; complete doesn’t exist.

Only by my Saviours side, will I ever find peace.

But for someone to love the brokenness,

To fill a gaping hole,

Such a burden to place on a person,

To have them play God, when they’re merely human.

So stay still beside me,

While I fall apart tonight.

It’s my only wish, that somehow when I cry,

I have your T-shirt to cry into.

Knowing you’re by my side,

My friend, my life’s delight.

***Amanda Eifert is a writer, blogger, and student from Edmonton, Alberta, Canada. She enjoys yoga, walking, drawing, the Edmonton sports scene, and spending time with her wonderful friends and family. Her blog is www.mandibelle16.wordpress.com and includes fiction, poetry, and nonfiction writing. She has her BA in English Literature from Concordia University of Edmonton.***